The worst type of depression is the type that you get out of the blue. No major event or whatsoever triggers it. It strikes fast and it hits hard. Out of nowhere, within seconds, a series of unprecedented emotions rush through the body, the heart, the soul. At first, you feel confused because a minute ago you felt okay, but later on as you cry your way through it and reflect, you realize that these emotions aren’t unprecedented after all. You realize that this suffocating sadness was caused by a little cabinet you keep inside. The cabinet where you store and hide the little frustrations from everyday life. The cabinet that you also occasionally use to lock in unwanted feelings. Those little pebbles and the few big rocks you’ve tried so hard to suck in accumulate over time, and the inevitable happens - the cabinet can no longer hold them all in. It bursts open and the rush of emotions happen. If only you released the little pebbles from time to time and saved space for harder days.. if only you didn’t keep them inside in the first place.